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everyday i wake up
tired and drained
i have to work on the same things everyday
my life has been in a downfall and it will continue to be so
pressured by the people i'm supposed to "trust"
they think they're good people but in reality, it's the complete opposite
i have to walk around people. they are a nuisance to me.
they are all narcissists who think they will automatically succeed in life
i have no one left to care for. and no one left to care for me
overworked and stressed with the desire to leave the world
i will always be alone
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abuse
11:05
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whenever i fail even the slightest
i get yelled at. threatened to be punished
they trying to take advantage to me
they try making me inferior
they want me to be filled with pain
i'm given words that fill my body with stress
i try to escape but i'm pulled back in. revoking my chance for solace
they try to make me humiliated as possible and not allow me to live the life i desire.
they fail to see my desire to die. and if they do, they will make it worse on purpose.
life is slavery. i feel as if i only exist to suffer without any reason.
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inferiority
17:17
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i will never become the person i want to be
confident and happy
instead i am hopeless and destroyed
and apparently it's for my "own good"
the people who i rely on will leave me soon
in the end...
nobody cares for me
all of my fears will come true and there's nothing i could do about it
a dream for a better future is just fantasy
and a future only consisting of suffering is the only truth
i want to be a better person. but i'm not allowed to do that
i wish i can disappear from life, and be forgotten
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mournfulness
03:59
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desolace (demo)
11:05
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polarvarg Elgin, Illinois
november 2019 - july 2023. this band is over.
polarvarg recommends:
Greyness of a Young Despondency
by Sadness
I have been listening to this more recently (2022) and its my favorite Sadness release. The music is relating to what i have been going through recently.
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Be Persecuted Tape Box
by Be Persecuted
The reason why I'm including the tape box is that i always used to listen to this band when i was severely depressed years ago. End Leaving is the best album they made
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Undescribable
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